Tonight is one of those nights when I'm glad I didn't spring for the next most expensive television package from our satellite provider. My house is HBO deficient, and that means I will miss the docudrama,
"There's Something Wrong with Aunt Diane," about a family from my home town of Floral Park, Long Island, who went through the unimaginable tragedy last year of losing not one but all three of their children in a car accident on the Taconic Parkway.
Many of my friends from grammar school stayed in Floral Park. It might be Long Island, it might be just 20 minutes from midtown Manhattan (by train), but it still retains the charm of a small town, albeit a town with about 16,000 residents and jets screaming overhead as they descend to Kennedy Airport.
One of my childhood friends who lives not far from the Hance family sent me a
link to the story when it broke last year. The photos haunted me for weeks - the Hance home on Vanderbilt Avenue, which is a few doors down from a childhood friend's house and site of many a high school Friday night fun with the gang, the scenes of mourners marching across town to the doors of my old church, Our Lady of Victory, where my parents were married, where I was baptized, confirmed and married, too.
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| Prayer vigil last year for Emma, Alison and Kate at Our Lady of Victory, my former church |
But what haunts me more and more is the growing sense of deep, bitter sorrow for all those affected by drugs, alcohol, and other addictions. Addictions claim more lives - both literally and the lives wrecked around the addict - than anyone can count.
In the Hance family case, the children went off for a weekend of camping with their aunt Diane and uncle, their cousin and the family dog. The grownups took two vehicles, and Diane drove home the three Hance girls and her own child in the mini van while her husband took the equipment and the dog in the other vehicle. During the ride home, the oldest girl called her father on the phone and uttered the unforgettable sentence, "There's something wrong with Aunt Diane" line and told her father that Aunt Diane was acting "funny" and driving on the wrong side of the road. The panicked dad jumped into his car while his wife called the police, but by the time they found them, it was too late. Diane's mini van hit another car head on. Killed in the accident were all three adults in the other car - a grandfather, his son, and his grandson. Killed in the mini van was Diane and the three Hance girls, Emma (age 9) , Alison (age 7) and Kate (age 5). Only Brian, Diane's son, survived, and has no memory of what happened.
The story has made the national news. Oprah even covered it. It's unthinkable. A family lost every single child in one bizarre accident. At first, the Hance family thought that Diane had suffered a medical event - heart attack, stroke, something. Then the coroner's report shocked them even more. Diane, it seemed, had the equivalent of 10 shots of alcohol in her bloodstream and was over the legal limit, along with high amounts of whatever active ingredient is found in marijuana. In other words, sometime between leaving the campground and the accident, she drank and drugged, then got behind the wheel of the car and drove three children to their deaths, while killing three other people in the process.
Part of me is wrenched with pity for her, pity for all the alcoholics and substance abusers out there. The Aunt Diane of the title of this story isn't some hideous monster the way I have seen some people portray her. Aunt Diane could, but for the grace of God, be any one of us so in thrall to the god of the bottle (or the refrigerator, or the craps table, or the needle) that we would do anything for the little god of addiction. Anything.
We're all one or two steps away from that, some of us closer, some of us further, but all of us reading this, I am sure, know at least one person among our family and friends who could have been Diane, now or in the past.
No, I won't watch the HBO show tonight, and not because I don't have HBO. And it's not that I won't watch it because the scenes from Floral Park, if they actually did film outside my old church and on the streets of my childhood, will make me sad and nostalgic.
I won't watch it because I can't stand all the suffering that continues due to drugs and alcohol and every single kind of addictive behavior out there. So much suffering, which compounds others' suffering. It becomes unbearable to think about it all, and one has to cling to the hope that God will take the bitter and wring some sweet from it.
If you can, pray for the three little girls and the three adults in the other car who were killed. More importantly, pray for Diane's soul, and for everyone alive still stuck in the hell of addiction today or who hide their pain and suffering behind substances, whether it's alcohol, food, cigarettes, drugs or you name it. Hell in a bottle brought hell to others. Let it end there. Let all who need the light and grace of sanity find their way out of the hell of addiction today.